A laugh with a shrill no one wanted to hear—silenced. mornings of indimidation—gone. new hope found in your departure brought the biggest smiles one company has seen in a long time. it amazes me that it took so long. and that it even happened at all. you won't be missed. you have no allies. no friends. you are— what i will never become. never look this way again, there is no consoling smile. only a proud contempt for your kind.

it started with a chip. a little nibble. then an overwhelming desire to devour. within 22 minutes, one bag of doritos cool ranch tortilla chips, succumbed to my moaning belly. 30 minutes later, my moaning belly buckled up and left me rolling on the floor. now here 7 hours later i feel wind break under the seat of my shorts. it looks likes it going to be one of those hot and sweaty nights.

i wish you could smell my feet right now. this slow march of death, the mallet toe, my dryrot love for you. we're done. and that's all that hammers in my mind. the finality of us. but i've known that for quite some time. so tonight, i forget and live and love again.

once again, i let go. effortlessly. with few words exchanged. it was #2, for both of us. her second time accepting, my second time declining. it was our pattern, it was the space in-between, sort of a breath apart.